Bismillahirahmanirrahim.

Alhamdulillah,Alhamdulillah,Alhamdulillah....rasanya mahu memeluk erat setiap sisters yang meninggalkan doa di sini dan menjabat setiap tangan brothers yang berdoa. Tiada lah yang lebih berharga  bila berada di dalam kesulitan selain doa dan mendengar kata2 perangsang yang baik.Banyak kali saya membaca doa2 disini..setiap kali membaca berasa sebak dan berterima kasih..syukur pada Allah Swt atas "rezki" doa2 yang di beri..bagi pihak Uwan dan saya sendiri sangatlah menghargainya,tiada apa yang dapat saya balas..saya baca setiap komen dan nama yang di tinggalkan di sini dan saya doakan semoga semuanya mendapat kebahagiaan dan rahmat dari Allah Swt. Doa yang baik dari hati yang baik dan ikhlas ..memberi ketenangan hati kepada yang sangat memerlukan..InsyAllah ,Allah  lah yang membalasnya.Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

Alhamdulillah tak berhenti..dapat lagi saya menulis..bersandar di dinding bilik hospital,sambil melihat Uwan yang tidur lena.Alhamdulillah hari ni Uwan banyak improvement,dapat ke bilik air walaupun atas wheelchair,boleh duduk di kerusi di papah..dan yang paling terharu Maghrib tadi saya dapat menyuapkan bubur.....kebahagiaan menyuap bubur padanya for the first time after 9 days terlantar adalah ibarat menyuap bubur ke mulut cahayamata pertama.Kalau selama ini saya masak setiap hari buat nya,menghidang makanan..tapi tidak merasa nikmat kebahagiaan maximum,kerana ianya adalah perkara routine di buat setiap hari..walaupun syukur selalu tapi tapi tak pernah duduk berfikir menghitung kesyukuran itu.Hari ini dapat membantu Uwan di bilik air,dapat menyuap bubur,dapat mengelap mukanya dan mendengar suaranya merasa nikmat kebahagiaan tak terhingga..betapa besarnya kekuasaan Allah Swt itu..tidaklah kita dapat tahu dan meneka apa jua perancangannya.

Moga saya dapat memperbaiki apa juga kelemahan di dalam diri pertamanya kepada Pencipta Yang Maha Besar,Yang Maha Pengasih Lagi Penyayang.Kedua kepada Ibu saya..moga diberi peluang bersamanya dalam keadaan yang sihat selagi Allah Swt mengizinkan, ketiga menjadi manusia yang sentiasa bersyukur,tidak lupa,lebih mengasihi sesama saudara dan manusia.

Kasihi lah ibu,suami,anak2,saudara mara dan sekelian yang menyanyangi kita selagi ada masa dan peluang, apabila kita hampir kehilangan..tiada apa yang dapat kita tukarkan bagi mendapatnya kembali..kerana kita tak ada kuasa walau sebesar zarah pun mendapatkannya.

To my bothers(Acik dan Atih),my sister (Maklang),my nieces and nephews,inlaws, friends,Thank You so much for your support.

Special Thank You to my husband for the love and tremendous support without his unconditional love it will be difficult for me to take care of Uwan as Tia Mia need attention at home.Special love to my niece Ayan,my sister Zaiton, my Acik,my nephew boboy,my niece Ikin they are like a solid rock..we sleep at hospital,we support each other at ICU,we cried and cheers each other.Also a special thank to my friends,especially Rufa,since i know her many years ago she always at my side when i need support.

Thank You again to readers,when my heart in pain your relief it through doas..Jazakallah..InsyAllah Allah Swt membalasnya.Amin.

Few days ago when Uwan masih bergantung pada oxygen..Alhamdulillah hari ni tak perlu pakai oxygen mask lagi.Sebak hati melihat Tia Mia merindui Uwan.

Moga Uwan cepat sembuh ya Darlings.

Ubat kepada setiap kesakitan,kerisauan dan kesusahan.Allahuakbar.

Salam Semua...I have gone through the hardest, the longest and the saddest time in life..it is small test from Allah Swt and we are redho. As human in a time like this no matter how strong we are,we easily break,only doa to Allah and support from families and friends keep us solid and going.

Uwan had gone through a very high risk operation, it was so sudden,Friday morning she was at home and at 10.30 at night she was already in operation theatre..i had to make the hardest decision, she had serious and fatal intestinal obstruction,according to the doctor if operation is not perform immediately she might not make it and if i send her for operation we have to be ready with the worst.It was the hardest signature i had to endorse in my entire life,it was saddest moment looking at uwan old face on the bed outside the operation theatre..i held her hand,told her everything is in Allah's hand "dari Allah kita datang,pada Allah kita kembali" and sesungguhnya minta lah kepada Allah dengan sesungguh hati seolah-olah Allah dekat seperti urat nadi di leher kita...she was so weak..i told her to be strong as Tia and Mia are waiting for her at home,i kissed her forehead and sent her in. It was the longest night,she went in at 10.30 and at 2.00 am she stilled not out,i felt like hiding in a hole...at that time i prayed so hard..only Allah knows what was in my heart.

She came out from the OT,she's stilled breathing and our Alhamduillah is non stop like a heartbeat in our body.She was doing great on the 1st and 2nd day but 3,4 and 5 th days were the hardest. Uwan is a strong lady,she reminded us many times that she is old and Allah has granted her 88 years of life,if the time comes she asked us not to cry but to remind her of Allah The Greatest so that she can go in peace...she even taught us again and again to ajar her mengucap,she said if she in pain must remind her to be sabar,Allah member kesakitan kerana sayangkan kita.

For the past 6 days my morning was filled with tears,everything in the house reminds me of her..i feel that if i can trade anything in this world.. i will do it for her without hesitation..how i wish she is sitting again at the my breakfast table.Listening to Maher Zain "InsyAllah' in the car every subuh when commuting from ICU to my house was a sad times..tears came down non stop.I never imagine that one day the hot water counter at 711 will be very useful for me,at 6.00 or 5.30 am i will be standing there mixing tea or coffee for me and my sister.

Today is the 7th day,Uwan is stilled warded she has shown good improvement..she is stilled very weak but recovering...tiap kejadian ada hikmah..apa pun yang akan berlaku di masa depan kita redho tapi sebagai hamba yang lemah kita tak putus meminta..dan kami meminta supaya diberi peluang bersama Uwan lagi..doakan lah Uwan supaya sembuh dengan segera dan dapat pulang ke rumah..Amin.

Ada masa  setelah Uwan sembuh saya akan berkongsi perbagai pengalaman di tempuh semasa kejadian ini...sungguh menakjubkan.Terima kasih pada yang mendoa kan di FB and jugak di sini.Salam.

MamaTiaMia@Tropicana Medical Centre - Room516  Sleeping at hospital with Ayan my niece.12.00 a.m.

Beautiful Things and Places.

Salamm;);) Hari ni pun saya tak sempat berborak dengan semua orang lagi:( So sorry..last night melawat SIL in yang sakit di Ampang Puteri,balik pun lewat.Pagi ni di office aduhhh macam2..It is not easy to handle people especially when they are all ladies!Kena breath in breath out banyak2..otherwise you ll be like jack in a box,jumping non stop.So i need to look at beautiful things and talk about topic i love most..a good way to distress for me;):) Writing is an escapism..you can be anywhere you like;)

Before that I would love to thank my "Invisible sisters at heart" for introducing Heather Bullard website to me..i love her website especially the awesome Chicken Coop @ Reban Ayam..jom tengok reban ayam ni semua..they are really gorgeous..rasa nak duduk sendiri:):)

All pictures are courtesy of Google except a few last ones.

 Look at this gorgeous Chicken Coop...cantiknya kan.

It can pass as a cubby house..dont feel like letting chickens to go inside there..hee..hee

This is another awesome chickencoop..so lucky Miss Turkey Lurkey inside there;):)

This is Heather Bullard House..so cantik no wonder her Chicken Coop pun cantik.

Her patio is to die for..very cosy and sweet.

Provence- one of her favourite place..mine too but  yet to have the opportunity to guling2 here..been to France but yet to explore Provence.

Love her pieces..once i have similar cups..tak tau now pergi mana.

Love her ideas too;);)

Finally..this is a another Chicken Coop to drool for..too much to handle lah..hee..heee

To those yang tanya about Hummus;) as Salmi mentioned,Hummus is made form chickpeas..i just elaborate a lil bit okay:)

Hummus and Baba Ghanoush.

Hummus is an Arabic word of 'chickpeas'..the simplest recipe i know for hummus is to boil chickpeas until soft,add a cup of canned chickpeas ( i love waitrose brand,..sedap dan lemak), add tahini (tahini is sesame seeds paste- you have to soak the sesame seeds for one night or more,let the kernel surface,separate it and grind the seed.),olive oil,garlic paste and lemon..semua blend and campur.On kandungan calory pulak from what i read if you eat the fresh one from restaurant or homemade the calory/fat is minimal,the culprit is if you buy the readymade ones.Since Hummus is from Legumes(chickpeas) it is good for diet as it can make you feel full for long.

Since kita bercakap pasal 'chick' ..ni haaa rupa 'chickpeas' kalau yang tak pernah tengok..masa kecik2 dulu panggil 'kacang putih' sangat suka makan kalau orang india jual dalam paper cone;)

This is Baba Ghanaoush)..nama macam tak boleh bayang ingredients dia kan..

Made from eggplants yang di grill dan lenyek halus..ingredient lain macam Hummus jugak:) Ishhh lapaq nasi Arab pulak dah;):)

Then ada a few tanya pasal travelling..i have answered one email on Sydney yesterday,,wish Ezlin a happy and wonderful trip to Sydney..hope she finally book at The Pacific@Balmain:):)

Somebody asked about Austria..is it a nice country to visit? I ve been to Austria,lama jugak dulu 2006 sebelum pregant with TiaMia;):) To me Austria is a very nice country,cantik,bersih dan semua orang berdisplin.Dulu we masuk Austria as a "pintu' untuk me and husband travel to Italy..masa itu kira2 nak travel Italy from Frankfurt ke..from France ke..then we made research and found that Austria is the nearest to Italy, boleh naik train from Vienna to Venice. We stayed in Vienna for 4 days 3 nights which turned out to be tak cukup:) Salzburg is too beautiful..we joined a local tour from Vienna naik bus to Salzburg...sepanjang perjalanan so cantik..nampak farmhouse yang ada balcony kayu yang berukir..padang pulak penuh dengan sef flowers yang kuning..macam dalam dream.We stopped for hot drink,pastry and soup at the highway..the cafe was like a 5 stars hotel..it was so wonderful to sit by a misty window looking at field fulled with blooms while sipping your hot chocolate.Bila bus dah dekat Salzburg we lalu saltlake,the tour guide asked us to turne our heads and look at the back the view was just awesome..the resorts at the hilly side,houses by the lake,people in their snow gear..it was like dream comes true..we hold hands and said 'one day we shall stay at one of the house by the saltlake"..heee..heeee..So pergi lah visit Austria..sangat awesome;);)

I  can't locate many pictures in Austria..most of the pictures stored dalam old pc..bila kena petir dulu banyak gambar gone;(;( tu lah sometimes still good to print our photos.

The classic and romantic Vienna-masa ni kita orang atas bus..my hb masa ni boleh tertidur..penat sangat agakya..tak boleh lah naik kereta kuda ni ha..

I memang suka mana2 park  pun pun..so The Rathaus Park ni so cantik to me.

We spent one whole day merayau keliling park and the city..dah tu makan brocolli balls at thier MC Donald..kat sini tak ada kan..sangat sedap..dia buat brocolli tu macam nugget bulat..tengah ada melted cheese...me kalau pasal makan memang boleh describe in details:)

In Vienna we stayed at the boutique hotel..macam apartment style..cosy and nice..the croissant for breakafst was one of the best yang i pernah makan.

Salzburg pulak sangat cantik..semuanya macam dreamy ..lorong2 pun sangat awesome;):)..tu lah cerita Austria saya:):)

Ni stock frozen food yang datang semalam..ada yang email tanya mana saya beli beefstrips tu..actually saya beli dari FAMA/PRIMA yang datang office..susah nak cari kat kedai..this is for export market.

Kalau nak cari kat kedai ini lah contoh chicken rolls yang saya beli semalam..500gm for RM17.50.

Punya sibuk lipstick habis sampai ke 'titisan darah terakhir'..heee..hee semalam pergi BB beli sekali dua sebab sangat susah dapat stock colour yang saya suka ni..

Ni jer satu-satunya colour yang boleh masuk bibir saya "Tulle"..sangat suka.

Banyak veges dalam fridge, hari ni breakfast buat salad bawak datang office..terlebih lah serbuk pepper..panasssss..ada yang tanya apa jenis cheese saya guna..untuk makan dengan roti atau salad ..saya beli ajer brand "Bega" atau apa2 pun yang jenis cheddar block.Senang boleh grate atau dice ikut kesukaan.

hari ni ada pasar tani lagi di office..so saya pun stock lemon banyak2:) Julie sedap lemonade kan..lontong dah habis lah..nanti buat kita tunjuk kat Julie buat drooling2 ya;);)

Bought these for tomorrow's breakfast..pada yang tanya..memang breakfast saya heavy..ada dua version..satu light satu heavy..kalau kita menjaga ibu yang telah tua,memang lah kena sediakan yang suka di makannya..kalau scramble eggs or cereal saja kesian lah dia..

Ini gambar last night..melawat my SIL at AP,uwan, saya tapaukan nasi,..sebab tak selera nak makan sebelum pergi..so Uwan pun makan kat Hospital..we doakan Mashik Tia Mia semoga cepat sembuh.Amin.

Darlings you left your Porsche in my office!

Salammm:):) Chit chat next time ya..so tired today(:

 Actually tired since yesterday..Actual achievement against Key Performance Indicator (KPI) is eating and killing me!!The problem is; like almost every two years they will change the people in charged of KPI, so new people has new style..tak cukup justify dengan sentences kena tunjuk evidence,kena buat chart..my goodness..and i have to fight for it as i am doing it for the department...ramai yang berharap nak dapat bonus maximum..so we just try our best okay .Bila balik rumah cerita my hb senyum2, he is on the other side of the table,in his office his the one setting target for everybody,he's in charged of KPI..gerammm:)

Anyway life goes on..Syukur should never be witheld:)

He..hee..somebody left her "pink porsche" at my office from the last visit..tak nak ambik balik ke? nanti nak pergi party Barbie and Kent kan:);)

Ni kerja budak dua ni malam tadi..they never get tired of drawing;) Me on the other hand last night was knocked out really early..i succumbed to bed by 9.00:(:( i think due to terlebih makan..i cant take too much food nowadays..i get tired easily after that:(:( yesterday i ate lontong for breakfast,nasi with kurma ayam,sotong and few other things for lunch and dinner i had laksa and a bit of noodles soup..too much isn't it?..hee..hee actually every month before the 'prayer rest day" macam ni lah..always like that..ada ke orang kuat makan during masa macam ni jugak;);)

And masa pergi beli noodles soup/laksa ni jugak dapat keinsafan;) The kakak yang jual tu buat gerai "mobile' tepi jalan tu aja. me berenti nak beli goreng pisang for uwan..tengok tak de.dia terus sapa nak beli mee dia tak..kesian terus lah order 4 bungkus for everybody in the house. And duduk tunggu..kakak ni very bubbly,good mood sepanjang masa tu,walaupun nampak penat.,..macam2 lah dia cerita,habis lah kisah anak2 dara yang lalu tu dia cerita kat i..tapi tak lah dalam bentuk menghina. Dia cerita anak2 sekarang,masa very pack nak ngaji,sekolah agama etc..so dia cakap anak dia after sekolah agama terus ajer mengaji sebab nanti kalau balik rumah dulu penat and tak nak pergi lagi dah..she said " arwah suami akak dulu cakap- " Ani nanti kau hantar anak ngaji mesti terus dari sekolah agama..etc..etc.." So in my heart was thinking susah kakak ni carik rezki anak semua tak lepas lagi,berjual kat tepi jalan kadang2 MPPJ datang angkut barang..but still she is very happy&bubbly..cerita dia tu tak der merungut kesusahan dia pun..hmmm me pun insaf lah..kita yang berkerja dalam air cond,naik kereta,lunch time ke Mall meninjau handbags,perfumes..sangat lah beruntung..itu pun kalau ada problem meroyan-royan..just imagine her..pukul berapa dia bangun,siapkan untuk semua..duduk tepi jalan berdebu..balik rumah nanti tak semestinya settle mesti kena siapkan untuk esok hari.

Orang perempuan sangat kuat actually..samada suri sepenuh masa atau berkerja sama saja..kita berjuang dalam cara kita sendiri.Dari pagi membuka mata hingga lah kita lena di katil kita tak putus2 buat kerja..infact orang perempuan sebelum menghembuskan nafas terakhir pun pun masih fikirkan keluarga..kebanyakannya memberi pesanan pada suami supaya menjaga anak2 dengan baik. Orang lelaki on the other hand memang dah sifatnya dari lahir "tak berapa nak cerdik" dari segi membantu orang perempuan ni..bukan semua tapi kebanyakannya..beruntung lah kalau dapat semua yang "cerdik dari segala segi";):)..Jangan lah marah orang lelaki dengan saya..sebab orang lelaki bak kata dia orang cerdik tu dah pergi pada muscle-muscle tu semua..tapi tu kalau yang ada muscle kalau tak der..haaa jawab..cerdik pergi mana? The only solution is " habaq kat telinga dia orang tu kuat-kuat!!!!!..Darlingggg..... i penat ni kat dapur ni..cuba you ambik pensil and kertas you tulis apa kerja i buat and apa kerja you buat dari pagi tadi..i bangun buat breakfast,mandikan budak,suapkan budak,hidangkan breakfast,now dah siap masak lunch..dah siap mengemas store,dah siap menggubah bunga,.dah siap bersihkan garden..youuuuu..cuba tulis..dari pagi 'saya makan,baca suratkhabar tengok tv....tengok tv,tengok tv,tengok tv..." my hb kalau too much i buat macam ni..dia pun terus cakap "ye lah i hopeless..." tapi he took it in a good spirit and kejap lepas tu dia terpacak kat garden habis berbau satu taman perumahan di semburnya racun serangga kat segala pokok! So ladies jangan menjeruk rasa..cuma jeruk limau,mangga atau cili ajer ye..let it out at their ears..kuat-kuatttt!!.

Habis my merapu berbalik pada cerita kakak tadi..kadang2 my perasaan pun lemah..masalah sikit pun effect banyak benda..bukan kuat sentiasa..manusia kan..so kena melihat banyak pada kurang..sebab yang kurang itu semangatnya sangat kuat..maka belajar lah satu dua dari nya.InsyAllah;) 

and you two..heppp..dont tonggeng-tonggeng too much okehhhh....

My routine..bangun pagi after dah turun bawah masuk dapur minum dulu..now tekak tak berapa sihat minum lah satu biji lemon dulu.

A chinese friend of mine told me this petua..dont mix the juice with water..if you cannot stand the sourness just add a lil bit of salt.. i found it very sedap lah..i like it..

After dah keluarkan semua barang nak buat breakfast..keluar bawakkan Ribbon and Cottontail celery.. ni pun i rasa sangat mendamaikan..i feel so banyak kehidupan around me and meriah;))

This morning we had bee hoon goreng..

panas2 makan with sambal kicap sangat sedap.

lepas masak jenguk Heni at her "department"..tak ada..mesti tak habis lagi di garden..bersihkan tempat rabbit barangkali..nowadays dia berebut-rebut nak bersihkan kandang tu dari me;)).This how i "latih" my maid..she  senior a bit so i tak kuasa nak marah2 or berleter selalu..so mana kerja yang sepatutnya dia buat dulu tapi dia tak buat i just do it myself.macam bersihkan tempat rabbit, kita kena sapu before cahaya matahari naik..kalau tak nanti lalat datang..dah sapu kena spray sikit sana sini..jadi kalau dia tengok me buat dia mesti tak senang hati,..sebab i buat breakfast,i siapkan budak,i bersihkan tempat rabbit..so you pandai2 fikir sendiri lah.So kalau buat macam ni sekali dua..dia faham dah..nanti di cepat2 buat..she is not rajin cuma dia tak pandai mengatur waktu..dah ajar banyak kali tapi tetap lupa..so i buat "reverse physcology" just like Tia Mia..Tia Mia kalau tak naik2 lagi mandi nak pi school..i tak kuasa lah nak memujuk atau bergaduh lagi dengan dia orang i just cakap " Okay i am going to office now..both of you can stay at home..i ll tell teacher that you no longer going to school and you can help with house works,clean the drain,sweep the flour,wipe the toilet...." dengar jer macam ni terus berkejar naik macam magic;);)

he,he..ini "stock" Heni..yang ini dia cukup ingat..kurang ajer dia terus cakap " Puan pelembut sudah habis..pengilat lantai sudah tinggal dikit benerrrr.."

Uwan pulak routine dia bangun pagi minum secawan nescafe..perut dia tak tahan dia terus nak makan..so sementara nak masak breakfast yang ambik masa macam bee hun ke..goreng lah dulu karipap segera or anything..she will eat that in the kitchen and after that will sit down at the verandah..she likes to see the girls berlari,Heni buat kerja..so me after dah goreng bee hun hantar lah sepinggan kat verandah.

Ada benda2 macam ni..uwan ada lah activity menyiram sikit2..which is good for her.

Okay Tia cepat naik otherwise.....jengg..jenggg you know what..hee..heee..p.s ada yg tanya pasal bunga..bukanlah greenthumbs sangat..pasal ada "baja magic" in the old entry saya dah cerita kan;)

Sebab semalam dah terlebih makan.. this is my lunch for today..Humuos sundried tomatoes wrap from O'Briens.

Since sangat suka Humous now..i pi tambah beli humous sebekas dari stall Arab:) Kalau siapa tahu pasal humous ni tak bagus makan banayk2 sangat pun please let me know.

I sapu Humous kat warp and gigit..ouhhhhhhh sedapnyaaaaa....

Perasaan sangat nak balik ke "Aminah Resort" this weekend..Insyallah:)

sangat seronok kalau dapat balik rumah uwan..the girls nak pergi banana farm lagi..hee..hee feeling2 OZ tak habis lagi lah dua orang ni:)

Semalan nak grill chicken tak jadi..hari ni maybe jadi kot...

Sebab sangat senang boleh campak semua benda dalam oven:)

Posting  berantai kat Facebook yang suruh kita post mana kita kena pergi ikut tarikh lahir in order to support breast cancer week tu shows that I have to go to Austria for 29 months..ishhh seronok bebenor..terus teringat Rauthaus Park yang banyak "giant" rose ni..so let me berangan kejap....taaaa..taaaa.