Salam Semua...I have gone through the hardest, the longest and the saddest time in life..it is small test from Allah Swt and we are redho. As human in a time like this no matter how strong we are,we easily break,only doa to Allah and support from families and friends keep us solid and going.
Uwan had gone through a very high risk operation, it was so sudden,Friday morning she was at home and at 10.30 at night she was already in operation theatre..i had to make the hardest decision, she had serious and fatal intestinal obstruction,according to the doctor if operation is not perform immediately she might not make it and if i send her for operation we have to be ready with the worst.It was the hardest signature i had to endorse in my entire life,it was saddest moment looking at uwan old face on the bed outside the operation theatre..i held her hand,told her everything is in Allah's hand "dari Allah kita datang,pada Allah kita kembali" and sesungguhnya minta lah kepada Allah dengan sesungguh hati seolah-olah Allah dekat seperti urat nadi di leher kita...she was so weak..i told her to be strong as Tia and Mia are waiting for her at home,i kissed her forehead and sent her in. It was the longest night,she went in at 10.30 and at 2.00 am she stilled not out,i felt like hiding in a hole...at that time i prayed so hard..only Allah knows what was in my heart.
She came out from the OT,she's stilled breathing and our Alhamduillah is non stop like a heartbeat in our body.She was doing great on the 1st and 2nd day but 3,4 and 5 th days were the hardest. Uwan is a strong lady,she reminded us many times that she is old and Allah has granted her 88 years of life,if the time comes she asked us not to cry but to remind her of Allah The Greatest so that she can go in peace...she even taught us again and again to ajar her mengucap,she said if she in pain must remind her to be sabar,Allah member kesakitan kerana sayangkan kita.
For the past 6 days my morning was filled with tears,everything in the house reminds me of her..i feel that if i can trade anything in this world.. i will do it for her without hesitation..how i wish she is sitting again at the my breakfast table.Listening to Maher Zain "InsyAllah' in the car every subuh when commuting from ICU to my house was a sad times..tears came down non stop.I never imagine that one day the hot water counter at 711 will be very useful for me,at 6.00 or 5.30 am i will be standing there mixing tea or coffee for me and my sister.
Today is the 7th day,Uwan is stilled warded she has shown good improvement..she is stilled very weak but recovering...tiap kejadian ada hikmah..apa pun yang akan berlaku di masa depan kita redho tapi sebagai hamba yang lemah kita tak putus meminta..dan kami meminta supaya diberi peluang bersama Uwan lagi..doakan lah Uwan supaya sembuh dengan segera dan dapat pulang ke rumah..Amin.
Ada masa setelah Uwan sembuh saya akan berkongsi perbagai pengalaman di tempuh semasa kejadian ini...sungguh menakjubkan.Terima kasih pada yang mendoa kan di FB and jugak di sini.Salam.
MamaTiaMia@Tropicana Medical Centre - Room516 Sleeping at hospital with Ayan my niece.12.00 a.m.