Syurga Ku.

Wednesday was hot- bukan panas di luar sahaja tapi panas di hati- di tempat kerja memang ada saja pencabar,tak tahu apa dalam hatinya:( I finally exploded on Wednesday- wanted to give my piece of mind but dia didn't pick up my call- so I  sent email instead and went back home...what a day on Wednesday. Politic is not my game.

The moment I arrived  home I left the "fire" outside the gate- My Syurgas were waiting:) Not fair to them if i bring in the fire- I threw away my bitter smile  and gave the sweetest face, kept my tired body and painful heart in the closet and went to the kitchen to fix dinner. 

I looked at my 91 yr old mother she was so happy to hear that i was back home- the two girls jumped up and down when they see me- what else would i want in this world- nothing else matters when you have all those:);) And to Allah Swt you submit..In sha Allah.

Thursday i decided to give my number one Syurga more time- i texted my boss and told him that i am utilizing my 2013 annual leave balance:):) I took one day off - for her- just for her.

I played my role as a daughter and enjoyed my day of a " full time housewife":);)

Morning: after sending the girls to my husband's car to go to school i gave her bath,shampooed her her hair  and powdered her face- bukan tak pernah buat pagi2 cuma this time i took my time,i gave full attention to scrubing her back,lathering shampoo on her white hair- i brushed her dentures- put on her pink baggy shirt and polka dots pant- helped her with her  her telekung, i let  her pray- and just like dulu2 masa kecik bila nak exam menagih doa dari nya- cuma this time i told her to pray for me so that i ll be strong,healthy,blessed with rezeki and i can continuosly take care of her. I cooked her favourite porridge for breakfast- masa kecik she always cook bubur nasi,bila dah really kembang she put a lil bit of salt and santan kelapa, the porridge becomes so nice,creamy and milky, she will boil eggs and fried ikan bilis and onion for me. I made that for her, she finished one bowl of porridge and a mug of milo.Lepas tu i brought her to her favourite sofa, i told her that i am going to kemas the rumah,arrange my books and re arrange some furnitures. While i kept my books in the new book shelves she cerita about kampung,about her glory days- lunch i took her and Heni to KFC and we had lunch there- i felt very happy that day- all pain in the heart hilang!:):) She cant hardly sees these days- the specialist said they can't perform cataract operation on her anymore- her nerves rosak;( :(- i cried few days when i heard that, i cried while driving from my office back home, i felt helpless- she is part of me- i can feel and imagine how to live with little vision but she is very positive- she said she redha,she tak think about herself so much but worried about me working hard,whether i have enough money or enough rest-i told her i have husband to take care of me but to her i am her little girl forever- whenever i think of that i will cry-  maybe i am a bit emotional, i have a lot of memories with her- as i grew up we carved our history together- as a mother now i try to do that as much as i could with my children- when your mother always  there for you, guide and hold your hands when you need her- she will become part of your life, you and her will be a team;);)- Emak you might see  less but you have  more in your heart-Alhamdulillah.

And ini yang i buat hari tu- i bought new bookshelves sebab old bookshelves dah roboh..haa haa..the new one supposed to have glass window on top tapi datang macam ni- first i was frustrated but okay jugak sebab boleh hide some of tia mia's ugly books:);)

I rearranged few things here- this area abandoned dah lama- since tia mia kecik we keep her toys in ikea boxes, bookshelves and drawers fulled with their legos etc- the wall pun dah kuning- last week i asked my husband to touch up the area and i get rid of the old bookshelves and drawers- i wanted to get rid of the cleopatra sofa too- tak tahu apa yang i fikir masa beli 7 tahun dulu:):) but not easy to buang old furniture kena sewa lori or panggil second hand furniture buyer- jadi i gave a facelift to the sofa-added new cushions and cover- jadi lah selagi mata boleh bertahan- since we placed tia mia's new piano here- i nak buat buatlah this area boleh lepak2 and baca buku-they quite good at playing piano - love to sit on the sofa,read my magazine while they play "Ode to Joy";);) and ada rezeki boleh tukar langsir- so long tak tukar:);)

Then i remember about this lace- i bought 8 years ago in Florence- dah kuning tepi dia tersimpan lama tapi bila rendam dlm Clorox putih bersinar balik..yeayyy happy:)

I fell in love with this lace when i saw it in a small shop in Florence Italy, beli ikut berapa panjang nak- i wish i beli banyak dulu2;);) lace dia berat dan tebal;);)

That was my Wednesday- Alhamdulillah anddddd tomorrow is Saturday! Happy mode- night night:)

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